The Atomica Project

i'm posting these now for a couple reasons. a. i'm nice as fuck, nicest guy you'll ever meet. b. people are going to ask me to and i'd rather do it sooner than later. c. atomica is very personal, i don't want anyone to interpret it incorrectly - "is she singing about birds in that part." so, i guess we simply don't trust your imaginations. i'm kidding!

anyway, here you go, metropolitan in word form. buy the album!

new york
one day in new york city it began
i felt myself collapse and start again
i knew that moment this would never end
i knew the world would never understand

calling out
can you hear me?
there’s no response
so alone
can you not feel me recovering
i will separate and become strong again
but won’t ever forget how this feels

one day in new york city it began
i felt myself collapse and start again
i knew that moment this would never end
i knew the world would never understand

holding on
alive but barely
where are you now?
overwhelmed
the feelings in me
are shattering
i will disconnect
and become pure again
but won’t ever forget how this feels

one day in new york city
one day in new york city
one day in new york city
one day in new york city

gun
wake up, purify
all I want is to get through the day
same scene, everywhere
growing tired of the desperate rate
if I knew then
you were here
all alone
feeling low
in a state of release
if I knew now
how to learn from the past
I would be who I wanted to be

hard rain, falling down from above
there’s no need to complain
we fall just as hard
to the ground each and every day
if I knew now
it would be
you and I
here alone
I would break down and cry
and if knew then
as a child
so naive
everything I have learned the hard way

real cold
shivering
I don’t know if it’s life or the air
the worst part of it all
is I don’t really think that I care

pollen
I commute
I travel alone
I’m brave in the storm
I come for you
it’s burning outside
I’m in fusion with fire

the affection of time
an emotion I can’t recreate
I’m diminished inside
though I pray that we can rapidly clear the air

I will surge
I weather the tide
I hunger within
I occur
I synthesize
I’m thirsting alive

the affection of time
an emotion I can’t recreate
I’m diminished inside
though I pray that we can rapidly clear the air

we collide
on railways we crawl
with metro beneath
in real life
we sit all alone
I’m staring you down

quiver
i owe this one all to myself
it’s for me and for nobody else
i don’t want to anymore
the world only gives you one chance
and i've made myself kind of a mess
yeah, i guess i’ve done it all

cuz i’ve seen myself quiver
with a body of toxins
so this is nothing at all
the heart of a genius
steals the soul of a recluse
so this is nothing at all

it’s time to face up to my fears
distinguish the glares from the cheers
i don’t want to anymore
the world's what you make in your head
it’s my time to flourish instead
of what i've done up to now

sorrow
with everyday
it's the the same theme I’ve known
a different way
that i'll be let down

and you are here

a deadly game
with no one i know
the painless way
that I’ll get let down

and you are here
i wish that we were someone
i wish you were a friend of mine
and we could be together
and we could make it easier

a flawless day
the lights burned and low
the clearest way
that i won't come to

and you are here
and somehow we're together
and somehow you're a friend of mine
and we can make it different
and we can make it easier

delorian
I could be your lover
an abandoned mother
strip away my youth
and stand alone with the truth
skyscrapers
and the beauty of it all
recovers me from where I’m bound to fall

I’m drowning in momentum
I’m floundering for dear life
have you ever thought I’d always be there for you
pure of inhibition
Immersed in your heroics
did you ever doubt that I’d be there for you

I could be an ocean
a recurrent motion
cleanse away
my youth
and leave me bare
with the truth
magnifies the impact of my fall

I’m drowning in momentum
I’m floundering for dear life
have you ever thought I’d always be there for you
pure of inhibition
immersed in your heroics
did you ever doubt that I’d be there for you

larsen
i've built a union of defeat
to the guard the falling of my dreams
and you can take it all away
but there’s so little left to seize
i try my best to overcome
i must have tried a million times
so much is standing in my way
it holds my hand while i decline

what’s gotten into me?
this was everything I had wanted but now I’m alone and angry
and if you still care for me
you were everything I had lived for but now I’m afraid and lonely

I sit alone and contemplate
All the parameters of truth
I wonder why they’re not so clear
they were so striking in my youth
My empire crashing to the floor
i’ve always felt a bit condemned
I’m lying naked in details
Being exposed for what I am

what’s gotten into me?
this was everything I had wanted but now I’m alone and angry
and if you still care for me
you were everything I had lived for but now I’m afraid and lonely

i've built a union of defeat
to the guard the falling of my dreams
and you can take it all away
but there’s so little left to seize
I feel the minutes counting down
when I can kiss goodbye the past
what I portray as eminence
we surely know is my collapse

what’s gotten into me?
this was everything I had wanted but now I’m alone and angry
and if you still care for me
you were everything I had lived for but now I’m afraid and lonely

recent
i lost my nerve on the subway train
and i don't know where i am
where are you now?
took the L in my desperate state
but i don't what that's worth
without you here
please help me god
all i know
is that this is the end

i dissapear on the metro line
but i don't think it stops here
where are you now?
i can live with my own mistakes
but i can't inherit yours
yet you don't care
please help me god
all i know is that we can't pretend

i lost myself on the subway train
and i know now what it's worth
to have you here
i took the L in my final breath
and it's everything to me
to have you here
please help me god
all i know is that this is the end

salt
I’ve tried to be your nourishment
but we starve
I’ve tried to be your confidant
through my flaws
I’ve tried to make us leisure class
but we’re poor
I’ve tried to be your resistance
yet how easily we fall

to breathe from the inside
the salt of the ocean
the waves are transparent
strands of emotion

I’ve tried to be your paramour
but I’m cold
I’ve tried to be so nonchalant
but I’m bold
I’ve tried to be the savoir fare
you don’t need
I’ve tried to take your breath away
yet how easily you breathe

to breathe from the inside
the salt of the ocean
the waves are transparent
strands of emotion
you can’t say I’ve never tried to love you
you can’t say I’ve never tried to die for you

worry
god
no response
monstrous
under constant movement
true
ultravast
i retain
every moment panic takes

every precious moment now

and I can’t look down upon you
you have made me feel life

god
overwhelmed
treacherous
as my poise is shattered
pure
retrovised
I embrace
every moment panic takes

every desperate measure

god
retrospect
left alone
but a warm retention
true
ultravast
i retain
every moment panic takes

and I can’t look down upon you
you have made me feel life

bittersweet
the bittersweet and incomplete
the feeling i'm surrounded by you
the great mistakes that people make
i'll always feel a bit betrayed by you
your anger simply compliments
the feeling i am hunted by you
i've seen your will to overwhelm
be squandered by the fact you still blame me

the bittersweet and incomplete
the feeling i'm completed by you
the great mistakes that people make
i'll always feel a bit destroyed by you
the seconds pass and complicate
the walls that have been built around us
a taste of losing everything
and one thing i will always love more than you

i told myself i had the stregnth to overcome
i am one amoung a million and a part of everyone
i told myself the world is greater than us both
i can barely grasp the magnitude of what it means to hope.